no one blogs anymore

except i don't actually like spicy food.

it's weird, knowing that this is my last week of high school, ever. i'm not overly excited like some, or scared, or anxious. maybe it's just because i honestly don't know how to deal with such significant events. i just continue on as normal, waiting to be hit with with that wave of realization that i find rarely attends to me anymore. so despite my ever quickly changing surrounds, i myself adapt quite slowly. concepts don't come to me easily.
except i skipped art. i wouldn't have normally done that but it was the last week of school.
i'll just keep going to school until i don't have to anymore and then it will be over.

it's strange really. and i feel a little dazed, slightly confused.

again it's strange that some people whom you have attend school with for perhaps six years will leave your life forever on friday. because i know that there are people that i will never see again. and i range from pleasure at this thought to indifference to sadness. but nothing will change the fact that we will no longer be apart of each others lives. one day we will just all be strangers once again. 

maybe it's just the pessimist in me, maybe it's just what my own history has shown me, but i find it hard to believe that you can remain as close with the friends that leave you, or the ones that you leave. with different lives, routines, schools, friends, cities, provinces how could you? so that's why you may find me slightly less exited to be starting this new chapter of my life. for as much as i do like change, there are some things that i don't want to let go of, so please forgive me for my fickle moods.

The words for this blog wont stick together, they wont meld. Maybe they just come from to many different place. Too diverse to find ways to bond together. I never really understood bonding. That's why I dropped Chemistry.
But the thing is, that space between my ribs, that one that has known to be hollow, known to be grey is bursting with color. I'm in a good place, I'm happy.
And very proud. 
And I know that the sadness will come, and the idea of being apart from so many of you next year will bring on laden tears, but for now, I shall revel in our grad.

Congratulations class of 2011. 

and just like that, it was all over.