The heat is on

The more that I take all these personality test, the more I realize that there is no real test that can identify who I really am. The one that I took, that classified me as an INFJ was terrible accurate in certain aspects of my personality. I am conscientious and value-driven. I seek meaning in relationships, ideas, and events, with an eye toward better understanding themselves and myself. I do my best to take all the information that I have to creat a clear image of what I am dealing with, in order to make the best decisions possible. I am a quiet, private individuals who prefers to exercise their influence behind the scenes. I am very independant, but I am also really interesed in the well-being of others all around the world. I do concider myself a activist for the down trodden of the world, and I hope to uphold that trait for the rest of my life. Infact, I hope to take that into my future career. I am a sensitive and complex individual, who is adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner. I believe that I have a very rich inner life. I am thinking of something almost all the time and enjoy hours to reflect on life and it's mysteries. There are times when I do not like to share much of what I think with others, and that may therefore be seen as reluctances to share with others. I also believe that I am well liked by my peers. I am guarded in expressing my deepest feelings with those that I do not know very well. I have difficulty trusting people in gerneral, especially people that I do not know very well. I am not a person to make a new friend in a matter of moments but would rather scope out the people I know and decided who I believe I would be best suited to be friends with. Being sentitive as I am, I have a tendancy to be easily hurt although I may not express this to anyone outside my closest group of friends. When I get hurt, scared or jealous emotionaly I tend to throw up a wall. I will relatate against this strike to my pride with anger that dose not easily fade. Whenever, or if ever I chose to tell someone some of my deeper thoughts or feelings, I will almost always feel stupid and vulnerable in doing so.
I blelieve I tend to be a sensitive, quiet leader with a great depth of personality. I am intricately and deeply woven, mysterious, and highly complex, sometimes puzzling even to myself. I spend a lot of time in self-reflection or thought. I have an orderly view toward the world, but I am internally arranged in a complex way that it seams only I, and those extreamly close to me understand. Abstract in communicating, I live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, I tend to be creative and easily inspired.
That is the part of the personality test that had me pegged down quite well. But I don't really think that each and every person can fit into a category perfectly. There may be one sort of personality that resembles them the most, but that dosen't mean it is always a perfect fit. I am the same way.
One of the personality traits that (INFJ) missed in me, is how argumentative I am. I can be terrible rude about it, and argue all the time. Aswell I have an almost obsessive personality, especailly when it comes to things. I obsesse over songs, movies, books, t.v. shows and almost anything else that I can think of. I don't mean to, but there are somethings that I can not help but love. I will listen to songs over and over again, read books 10 times or more and so many other weird things. I love to pick at things, weather it be over something that is bugging me or at a cut and everything inbetween. I am vaine, terrible vaine. I love to look at myself in the mirror. It may be a bad thing but somedays I just really love to see that I am still looking pretty.
One of my worst habbits is making a bad habbit of boys. For me, it seams that there always has to be some boy for me to think about, even if I know that he dosen't like me that way, or that it will never work out. I make a bad habbit of liking a boy for months at a time, and I never seam to get over that one guy until I find a new one. When I fall, I fall hard and for a long time. Boys are a hard habbit for me to break. In the same aspect of boys, I really like being liked by them, even if I don't want to date the guy. It is terrible horrible but it boost my confidence. Some days I have really low confidence, others, I think that I can strut the cat walk (knowing that I never can). I really want to fall in love, even if that means that I will eventually get my heart broken. I want to travel the world and I want to learn all that I can about everything that I can. I hate it when some one is a hypocrite and lies drive me mad.
That is me, in a nut shell.