find the truth

There are people out there that I find, afer a while, just weren't worth the time getting to know. For it seamed that there for a while, you were good friends. Then gradually, if your friendship is no longer one of convience, they will just drop you off to the side. It may hardly even matter how good of friend's you were before. If it is no longer a convient thing for them, to stay friends with you, then they don't. Latter, when that convience reoccurs, weather it be in a moment without friends in the hallway, or a class then shared second semsister, they are your friend again. Then they ask what happened to your friendship, why you had never spoken before that moment and swear to be friends again. Only then to leave you at the drop of a hat when it no longer is of a benifit to them to be friends. I try, really I do to reastablish that connection but after a while, be it months or weeks, it is not longer worth the effort. It takes to much out of me. I don't really blame people for this type of reaction, for it is eveident to me that they no longer wish to be friends. But it is fake act of "you are a great person, I miss being friends with you! We should hang out soon!" that really buggs me. That makes me a bit of a hypocrite because I know that I have done that before. But it bothers me so much when I see this act repeated to my face time and time again. If you don't want to be my friend I would much rather you tell mee so I do not have to suffer from this delusion. Trully, I do miss you. I thought that we were tight and that we would be friends for a lot longer than we lasted. You found someone else and then cut me out. Really, I can hardly say that I care very much anymore. So aurevoir. Pretty much I have planned to tell you the next time you say, "Hay! We should hang out!" I am simply going to say Well, you know I have gotten the impression that you really don't want to. So thanks, bu bye