Today I am in extream pain. I am not even trying to be potetic or use some sort of analogy here, I am hurting. While trying to heat myself a warm mug of my primary life sorce, being tea, I burned my finger. The mug had been mircrowaving to long, and it was very hot when I grabed it. I didn't realize it was scalding until it was hafway between the mircrowave and the counter. Luckly my stupidity ended at the grabbing of the mug, cause I didn't have a panic and fling scalding tea everywhere and break a mug, possibly sending shards of pottery into the air, one of which could have landed in my eye and blinded my for the rest of my human life, or stabbed me in the chest, causing me to bleed out, or lodge it's self in my throat making me choke. No, none of these things took place. I simply put the mug down swore a few times and danced around. Since that moment I have been icing the burn in order to numb it to my nerves and therefore my awarness. But time has come to face the pain, and it hurts. In stead of being grown up about it, I am being grumpy, whiney and stuborn. I am not happy.
This also conspicously falls on the same day that I am not happy about more than just my throbbing finger. I am also displeased with the fact that I can not for the life of me focus on studying for math. I am fucked.
And I hate Chemistry
And getting this all out in a spill of angry blogging is actually making me feel quite a bit better.
Tomorrow will be better.
pain sucks. two days ago I had to go for blood tests and i was a huge wimp about it so that night I cancelled my plans and sat at home and felt sorry for myself and now I really regret it, and the inside of my elbow still feels awkward from the needle, and I can't focus worth a shit on studying either and tomorrow WILL NOT be better cause its the actual day of the chem exam and then I will spend the rest of the afternoon freaking out over math, which is going to rape me on friday.
ReplyDeleteI'm gonna go write my own blog now, and pray that by the end of it I too will be more hopeful. sorry if I ruined your looking forward to tomorrow, that rant just had to come out.
I don't think that there is anyone who could understand you better than I do right now. I hate blood test, so so much and I have the same test that you have coming up, unless you have a thirty level. Still same class. And j am not prepared for either of them. I completely related to your own blog and I posted a comment to try and make you a little less stressed. I hope it worked. You and I should hang out again soon
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