i win the lottery, giant super nova

are you ever walking somewhere, somewhere generic, robotic and unexciting and then you realize that you've completely forgot about the actions set in motion that brought you to the place that you currently find yourself? it is this sort of feeling that makes me fear that I am not one of those who is living their lives, but simply existing. it scares me.

other days, i find something that makes me so happy, maybe where others are complacent, and it give me back a little bit of hope that maybe that i do live my life a little bit brighter than some others.

the small community of those that follow these words, i believe as does Hannah, that we all need to blog more. as such, i propose a challenge to you all. we will post questions in our blogs to which others must reply. if you want. so to you all i ask, (and now i feel like a vlogger) what keeps you from simply exisiting?

i do question quite finally, how to remember who I am when i lose myself. i forget who i am at times and i know not how to find me again. eventually i return to my own flesh and bones, like night upon a sunset evening, slow and slightly unexpected untill i have found me once again.