it's a loud radio kinda day

It's funny how you can mean something so different to someone compared with what they mean to you. Well maybe not funny, in fact most of the time it's not funny at all. It's messy and complicated, it becomes awkward and feelings are left to tend to there own festering wounds. But what it is, I do believe, is a raw display of humanity, of our complex emotion lives that play out like characters in an online gaming world, connected to the person outside the box by a simple cable connected remote with a whole lot of buttons with different colours.

What I don't understand are the people who say there emotion lives are completely different from the face they put on for the rest of us viewing world. I can't understand how you could put up with that. I would get tired and bored of it all.

Anyways, that was a little off topic of what I was planning to say next. You see, I was cleaning my kitchen, listening to Party in the USA at a volume that suggested neighbourly intervention, contemplating where to go with this next, and I worked it out. I wanted to say I love those who's interactions are simple, because there is an understanding there, weather it was established after years of friendship, or just months. Where sometimes, words are just a formality, I think that is the word I am looking for, formality. Anyway, as fun as it is to meet new people, for the funny stories they bring into our repertoire, and the potential they hold, there's not much that can beat the comfort and sense of belonging that I find with those I count as my bestest of friends.

On a final, adding in about three hours latter note, I feel like I have a thank you that needs addressing. You see, sometimes I find myself wanting something, asking life of this thing and sometimes when I am lucky, I find these wishes manifest in my life. Most never in the way I expect it, all the same, they are there, like a rainbow in the sky, or a smile from a stranger, just waiting to be noticed. Maybe it's a case of good Karma, maybe it's a case of wishfull thinking. Either way, I am thankful. And happy. This summer is starting off well.

What I am not excited about is getting my wisdom teeth removed. My life becomes complex becomes of that.