and you?

Some things you probably didn't know about me. But now you do

I don't really like flowers. A lot of them just remind me of the reproductive functions of nature. And I find kinda gross. I like how they smell, and I love their colors. But for the most part, I don't really like them. The only exception to this is sweet peas. I love sweet peas.

I used to suck my thumb and still have my stuffy form when I was a baby. She is always in my bed.

I can rarely criticize something until I have heard the criticisms of someone else. Then I can decide if I agree or not. But otherwise, I will probably just like it.

I don't watch a lot of tv or movies, and that makes me sad. I spend a lot of my time in front of my computer and I am worried that it will give me cancer one day.

I find after I really get to know someone, I can't really classify them as attractive or not.

I am proud of my ability to lie convincingly.

I hate being ignored, and it makes me do stupid things.

Sometimes it hurts my feelings when someone doesn't like the same stuff that I do. I know it's stupid, so I try to keep things like that to myself.

It really annoys me when my Facebook wall extends so that there are a lot of posts on my wall. I don't want people to think that I am on Facebook all the time. Even though I am. I care to much about what people think to much, even when I don't like them at all.

I forget quite frequently that people don't have the same thought process as me. And it's a serious issue. Because something that I would do, or say, from my mind, is really cruel, or indicative of how I feel towards that person. But coming from someone else, it carries a completely different meaning. Or no meaning at all.

When I was in the sixth grade,  my best friend, (who was a boy) told me that he was in love with me. In that year, two other of my closest male friends told me the same thing. It freaked me out so much that I developed and irrational fear that every boy I became friends with would like me. It was the dumbest thing but it honestly losing those strong friendships was hard. So I stopped having male friends for a while. I've done a lot better this year at having friends that are boys. I am really proud about it all.

The only way that I know how to get over someone is to find another person to fall for. And this worries me. Because I feel like it's unhealthy.

I feel like I have a personality that gets addicted to things really easy. Such as the internet, other people, caffeine, ect.

I'm worried that I'm losing my humanity, becoming numb to the atrocities of the world.  

I love holding hands. So much.

I love being trusted

I have never feel so lost. Not knowing what I am doing next year, it scares me.