come on friends get up now, you're not alone at all

This has been a good day. I know it, although I don't really feel it right now. I think it's because I am over exhausted and feeling really broke after my third day of Christmas shopping. It's like an infectious disease of the wallet. And then I have no more money and I don't like that.

It's just money I guess. That's why I have a job. I think that I will feel better about it when I give out my presents tomorrow. I love giving presents. And giving cards and stuff. I have been thinking about money a lot lately. Money to go to Turkey, to go to Africa, to go to Vienna. Oh I wish I could do it all. But I don't think I can. Money for university. Someone that's still mangling to sneak up on me. But it's not as scary as it used to be.

I missed hanging out with my Bff. It was a good day, if just for that. It is unbelievably easy hanging out with someone like that. Conversation is never forced, I never feel the need to talk if I don't want to and I rarely have to worry about being misunderstood. The only problem is when I then go to hang out with other people, I am immediately confused when they can't fill in my blanks, or they don't laugh at my jokes or don't interrupt me mid sentence. This best friend relationship did a poor job of preparing me for relationships with others in this world.  Oh well. Because honestly, I love it. I love that I never ever have to worry about holding back, about forcing conversation, about being understood or talking to much. Because I do have a tendency of talking to much. And with some people, they listen to all of it. And then I end up looking like a selfish bitch cause I only talk about me. I think it's just because I am used to our friendship, like I said before. I'm not all to prepared for friendships with different kinds of people than you. But you don't let me only monopolize the conversation and I love it. You make it so easy and I love you for that.

I think someone should document the different types of BFF relationships out there. I am so excited for our sleepover. H.E.R<3

Your piano boy is a hottie. And I hope that your gifts work out well. Thanks for today

Today was good for other reasons as well. For cotton ball snow that falls on such a beautiful setting, for Christmas songs, for wrapping presents, for the last day of classes for finishing off a large part of my Christmas shopping, for getting to school late and for Turkey fest. Tomorrow.

I love the holiday. I love it with every sub atomic particle in my body. I love the music, the snow, the hot drinks, good food, beautiful Christmas trees, the presents, wrapping paper, the no stress situation and most of all for family. I love them all and I am so happy that we will be back together under one roof. I love my family.


Parts of me are behaving weirdly. Getting vindictive and crafty.