and feel--they know not what but care;

Today I got a grad dress and it makes me feel very pretty. And I like it very much. But at the same time. I'm, apprehensive. Because it was expensive. Because it's a light pink. Because it's very different from what I imagined I wanted. So I wear a crease in my brow.
I do like it. Very much.

Today is not how I imagined it would go. It jerked, flowed and ebbed. Passed quickly or seemingly not at all. I don't remember certain moments. They slipped into my mind like water down cold gray glass and then disappeared. Because you couldn't keep track of it anymore. I'm confused. And tired, no drained. Covered in gray. I have an essay to write. I should go on a run. I want to sleep.

I don't know. I feel blurred. Like a weak patronus. I want to watch Disney movies and play video games with someone that will hold my hand. But that wont happen.
Not today.

Not for some while.